The difference between Morpheus and Alex

There are two differences between Morpheus and Alex.
1. Morpheus wants to save people because he believes that they have a right to be free.
Alex wants people to save themselves if they believe they have the ability to be free.

2. One of them is a fictional character. The other dresses in black and wears shades.

Meta wrote:
Alex, could you help me edit the OP in the NH Knowledge Thread?

Looks like you figured out how to edit while I was away? Afaik you just bring up your post and click 'edit' down at the bottom right.
Since I've been busy doing tutorial 6 and have only just got back online, I have more catching up to do than you on other threads  :  )
Best
AR

empathia Wrote:
I now experience anxiety even reading fantasy.
and
I feel much more calmer.


Hi dude,
Sounds like this needs some narrowing down...calmer is good, so that's the right direction. You can figure out by process of experiment and elimination where the anxiety's arising, for example:
Do you get anxious reading other stuff? Science papers, detective stories, the telephone directory? If so, then reading is the thing your brain doesn't like right now and that's probably an N4 or N5 glitch (if the problem is with fiction only, N4.)

Do you get anxious listening to audio fantasy? Watching fantasy movies? Writing fantasy? If so, then it's the subject matter that's the problem and that indicates probs in N3

Do a few experiments and then approach the specific network/s that seem to be the problem. If you find the area that's rebelling against activities like reading fantasy then your next question is what cool activity to give it to do instead. Remember to focus on the solution (doing good stuff) rather than the problem (paying attention to problems)
Best,
AR

Thanks, Scal.

okay...

test has been done... sorry, but it seems you should be able to see the "edit" link on your own posts (meta), and use it to edit them.

is it like you don't see the "edit" link or the link doesn't work in any way?

Scalino

Oookay... I think we got a little bugger, dudes... cause I don't even have the ability to act on it either, no links at all

you broke the bloody ship, dude, you broke the bloody ship!

I'm not totally sure how I can fix that, I'll keep you up

Scalino

PS: for questions about the site, you got the 'newcomers questions - site related' thread at the bay.

Alex thanks for the tips I'll check what's the status.

BUT NOW, for something rather diffe-rent!

I made a breakthrough today and for all I know could very well be making it to matrix 4 now! Because the issue was about going beyond my limited belief systems and doing pretty much as Scal pointed out, fucking them in the eye.

Now I have some experiential knowledge about what it feels like for a matrix to run the ship as let that part of my personality completely run it for a while and everything was cool, it felt right and now what I'm experiencing now feel right in a sense (there's a sense of 'wrongness') but then there is this immense feeling of power attached to it as well and I just KNOW I am really a hugely powerful person in reality. It's like this part of me is like Yang side of me and the Jesus side I gave in to for a while was the Yin side if that makes sense..

I'm having pictures and knowledge about what my family was like and phew, what a load of crap! But it's wonderful to know that I'm on the fasttrack on leaving it all behind, and pretty damn far I might say too! Ha! So there suckers!

On the mystic front some things have happened as well, maybe these developments go hand in hand dunno? Don't really care that much. Everything will just go as it should.

Yay! (once more)

Indeed great. It's still been "topsy turvy" but there's definite progress. It's weird that yesterday was the first day that I became able to be as really mindful to a degree that it I felt that "yeh this is what it's like to be mindful". I noticed  I didn't have any deep feelings when I watched  children's programming, just a bit of real stuff and a lot of confusive "this-and-that" (noise) but I won't let that bug me.

This ties in with what you write about not going too fast. I've been having a lot of fear and now finally I'm starting to be ready to face them so I can start living creatively a bit.

The community I 'work' with is a blessing, it's so cool to have all these more-intelligent-than-me people around me.

It does effect the perception of weight. I don't want to remember too much about the old times though I guess that's sentimental, but now I've been walking with an enthusiastic stride sometimes and love it.

I recently did an FA. The last one was 3 months ago. There was a huge change towards perceiving myself in the correct light, I think.

N5 was the dominant network still and N3 after that. Together they are 50% for me! It's interesting cause while I'm more ok with people, I do still stonewall etc... Here are numbers for N4 (Function, Wronguse, nonuse) 15,76, 10,52, 73,68.

I just wonder how is it possible that I have so much nonuse... maybe I just can't see myself correctly or maybe there's trauma associated with school etc so much that I never took up those areas again?

Anyway, life's both cool and mysterious so everything is fine..