Seriously. There's all this potential for exuberance (elation) in this


Ok so now I stop writing because I realize I have to take my complaint to that Avner guy probably. Or should I? As a previously computer-bound (happily, in a lot of ways, except for that invisible wisdom which was missing:) I got to know Alex, but now this Avner thingy is forcing me to "see reality as it is" .... but I'm noticing that my brain don't wanna. And my gut is getting "neutralized." Maybe it's because of that evil little critter in the taxi I rode and the spooky soundclip he played for me. Or maybe it's because the Avner song reflects who I USED to be before I discovered NH. This is all very confusing. Seeing how Alex saw the world changed how I did. Now I'm trying to see and remember. And it's all physically taxing. I can't just lie down all the time. I need to get high; memory high! From introspection to fluid action. Unlock the secret!